Un Échec

I rarely don't open my laptop now and I barely talk to any of my current friends and I'm happy that I don't need to pretend like I'm some kind of guru to anyone because honestly it's irritating, anyway this is not about WHAT I DID THIS WEEK post and I'm not planning on writing those kind of stuff when needed too, starting today. Don't ask me why, because the point of this blog is for me to express my passion in life and make a mark on everyones heart and make you guys understand how precious life can be.


'Un Échec' meaning 'life and friends', I've been the kind of girl who always stood on her ground in some ways where I am the one who's taking over my life which is ironic from all of you because no one like EVER wanted anyone to take the pen from their hand to write their whole life story, so you guys understand my drift to this blog, (hopefully).

We always lose some closure to some of our friends and I've been there and done that, I never hold some grudges to anyone specially when I respected the relationship/friendship that I had with that person but sometimes overwhelming feeds you more than it should be and its hard, hard to forgive those people who was once came into your life and just got out of it like it's the easiest thing to do, but we are talking about life and in life nothings easy and nothing's permanent or to last forever because any other way wether we like it or not we will lose something and what hurts the most is someone special. It's hard to go on and pretend like it's okay when everyones expecting you to be happy, everyones like pressuring you to your limit.

I lost some of the comfort feelings or what you called 'comfort zone' on some of my friends and current friends like we're not that close anymore, I would love to think that it was just a spur in the moment that I suddenly forgot. Its normal to actually feel like you don't belong in your group of friends, I know the feeling and I know how hard you try to fit in to them and just failed but remember its better to be alone and have 1 trusted friend than to have many. I only keep my childhood friends and my actual best friend in my whole life story and just keep some of my friends outside the story line but FRIENDS are FRIENDS so technically I don't trust many people than I actually did before since a recent events happened on my last school year I know you can't trust everyone, of course excluding my parents. I think its safe to say that we all have experience the loss of someone and the loss of a friend that was dear to us, I know that in someways some people will walk out into my life and move on with their own life and do the brighter things for themselves but some can always go back and be the same fruit in your trees again. It was never easy.

I've lost a lot of friends before and it's not that hard for me to be happy and joyful again, we may lose some of the people who we knew was the best thing that was once came into our life, we could be happy again maybe the agony will be gone but the memories we have with them will always be here in our heart. I know I'm still young, I will still meet some people along my long journey to life, and I still need to explore the beauty that was blinded by the people who were blocking my view to it, so all the people who take their part ways last year and this year I decided to take them as a lesson learned in life and that we may part ways now I will still be the better person and just accept the fact the you walk away and do things on your own, regardless of our friendship that was now cost a thousand memories, I will not shed tears for you, instead I'll stand up from the agony and the dark side of its dawn and show you how you were once the person I trusted. thank you for the bad and good things we shared together.

To all of you my beloved readers, I know you guys have ups and down when it comes to friendship and it's okay to lose some people, it's not easy 'i know' but sometimes you have to lose something to see the brighter things in life, never let a shadow of someone overtake the good things. Be the better person in the situation and never indirect or post vulgar statuses on your twitter or Facebook. Thats not the mature thing to do, you have your future life in the palm of your hand, be the good person and act like a classy lady, always put up a good use of your advantages.

-jackie