Hello, it's a fine summer for me, a lazy day everyday, go shopping, talk with old friends, and just do something that will kill time but eventually I'm getting lazier and lazier every time because of the heat. *groan dramatically* you can really feel the summer. But this is definitely not the point of this blog. So I've encounter a lot of my twitter friends (specially on twitter) having the same problem or diagnosis and its self-harming because of bullying and maybe some cause by our society and the peer pressure that i know most of us teenager are experiencing this days.
One of my twitter followers is having a hard time, I saw her tweet and to be exact she's saying no one cares for her so she's better off alone, I DMed her because I wanted it to be a private conversation between me and her and so did I, she didn't hesitate to tell me all the things that she's been feeling how she always feel distraught and anxious, how no one else care about her, how she's not worth it and what hurt the most is how no one will notice if she's gone to be honest I feel like my knees are giving up from all the things she told me, I was devastated but I just let her pour her feelings out to me as I read and mentally listen to her. I told 'everything will be fine in the end' 'you're absolutely beautiful' 'I care' 'I'm here for you' all the things I said was endless of compliments and comfort words and you know what? I was having a second guess she'll believe me but then what surprise me the most is that she thanked me and told me I save her, I was super happy and feel relived that she didn't do anything stupid to harm her or ruin her life. She's a beautiful girl, I may not know her personally but I know what she's like by her tweets and how she talk to everyone, she's a nice girl and she deserve more than anything in world.
But thats not the point, my point is that it only shows how a simple 'are you okay?' and 'I'm here for you' can save someones lives and a simple smile to a stranger can make their day. We all have our own stories to share to everyone who we love and the best part about it is that even though we spill our distress on some stranger they won't judge us but they will understand us. I learn this in a hard way and I know deep down all of us are struggling to overcome something, but this I promise you when you do overcome it you'll be the greatest person you will ever be and it will all be okay in the end, it will always turn out the way you want things to be or maybe yet it will be greater than the things you wish it will be.
You only see the things the person wants you to see, but you would never know how it feels until you're in their shoes, so don't judge someone so easily maybe they self-harm and your stupid comeback won't help her/him at all, maybe they have a bad childhood and your remarks wont help her/him, maybe they have a family problem and you're teasing wont help him/her at all. It's never easy for everyone, we all have our own different problems in life and making someone feel less better or greater than you won't make you any less than a low person. You're a person too, you have your problem, they have theirs.
A lot of teenagers around my age are experiencing a tough road in life and I've seen many of my close twitter friend or a stranger self-harming or committing suicide, maybe to end the suffering and the pain that we also caused to them, people always start caring when its too late and that makes me sad because its true they wouldn't care when you say good things (some people do) they wouldn't care when you're sick but when you close the wall up to them and you start doing stupid things they will start to care, It's frustrating but I really do understand those people, they are in pain, they don't think anyone loves them because some people just don't like showing affection and I get it. But the thing is, you just need to open your eyes and see closely that someone truly does love you, your parents, your best friend and those people who always look at you when you walk pass them, they do care they may not show you but trust me they do, don't be afraid to seek or ask for help, it doesn't show weakness it shows courage that you wanted to be better and I know you will be better.
You will hear from me next week, thanks for reading. Don't be the echo, be the voice.
watch this, this is heart melting video ever <3
-Stay strong, Jackie :)
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