Start of something

I haven't gotten any day off for myself since the last day of school so I'm sorry for not posting enough in here. This pass few weeks have been eventful and very exciting I may say so myself, I've been spending my day with my dad and mom, my best friend who also turned 18 this march, 16 I am more happy than ever to spend that special day with her. I've been going to my dentist this pass few days to fix my brace and my dad got me two new books which I think is fair enough for me to occupy myself when I'm bored specially because my family doesn't have any plans YET this summer, but crossed finger to that (batangas or bora-bora please *whisper to my self*) and I have been sketching nonstop at night for my upcoming project to work on. I'm really looking forward to work with so many people this summer as so relax and have a good summer with my family and relatives.

I have gotten myself busy this summer and I also meet new friends along the start of this sizzling summer 'oh well you know if they look friendly be friends with them' phrase, yeah sistah thats me.
But I also miss spending my day with my friends which I haven't seen since the last day of school but anyway they can live without me hanging out with them for 3 months straight. Anyway I have like... like good, good, good news ... guess what? oooh well I have 22 new books OMG like come on dance with me and lets celebrate. okay i know I'm so ecstatic (favourite word oh gosh).

So yeah I know this summer will have a full blast and I know there will also be a hard time along the way but who knows where this summer takes me. You never know maybe I'll be in New York this may. 'Just kidding' ha ha ha ha I'm so funny. *face palm* oh jackie what a weird child I bet if this is a video I'll be making a big fuss and oh god, I wont start with that.

I really don't know where to start about how I'm feeling this pass few weeks. I feel happy like I'm glowing, you know like glowing stick (really jackie? Glowing stick) yeah so I don;t know, as you can see I'm very happy and very hyper. This is what my family do to me they give me happiness, they give me a reason to keep on going. I know not all of us have a good family relationship and I'm proud that I have and I know they will always support me through everything, through my mistakes that I make/made, through my undecided decision and through out my whole life perspective. Too sappy for jackie haha but yes I am happy no matter what anyone says to me because otherwise it wont matter to me. You don't like me 'I don't care have nice life though', you hate what I'm doing? 'why care when you can ignore it', you don't believe in me 'sorry honey I can prove you wrong'

Come on people why send hate to someone who clearly don't give a damn about it, no matter what you say or do to me I won't stop. I'm being real so why bother? I have my own life, my own self, my own personality, my own style, and my own perspective. We may see things the same but we have a total different meaning to it.

I don't what to hurt other people by saying this stuffs that I know some of you might know who this is for *sigh* you don't do stupid things for yourself, you do it for the one you care. *too sappy and sweet eww* I don't think you know this but its not really a bad thing to have someone to care for you but if you didn't take the chance that once in your door well better luck next time for you, 'you screwed up and bye have a nice life finding a dog tracking your smelling pants'

This is a good start for my summer, new books, new clothes, new friends and a family to stay with the whole life. I really wan't this summer to be unforgettable, I want this to be the summer I will play back and rewind on my head as if it's a movie type of scene and I know it will :)



Happy summer everyone, hope you have a good one. ;)

-Jackie xx

Books Recommendation

To start of this NEW BLOG he! sorry need to capitalised that but okay so back to where it began, so basically this was my book recommendation blog and I'm so sorry for this late blog that I was supposed to write last monday, its supposed to be a book review but then all my thoughts got bundled up with one idea and thats to put all the books that I wanted you guys to read because it's amazing *singing voice*

The Hobbit by J.R.R Tolkien like OMG i know a lot of people have heard about this and well seriously its amazing, you all should read this I won't give anything away about this book because it will be my fault why you guys will get addicted to this, and hopefully this summer I can have my whole collection. an actual book of the hobbit oh my thats heaven.

so you guys know JAY ASHER one of my favourite author, and this book is one of my best recommendation because it has that thrilling and intense scene in it, its mysterious and very very thrilling (okay I said thrilling 2 times now wait this makes it 3 okay I'm good)

I would recommend a book set of John Green to you guys but Its too mainstream for me to post that on here, but here is one of the best work Mr.Green wrote and it was one of my favourite, you guys should read this not only 'The fault in our stars' don't get me wrong I love TFIOS but i think most of the people who read it, are only reading it because it was 'POPULAR' like they don't know the whole concept and twist around the TFIOS which I am sad about.

If you don't want to sleep at night without something creeping you out, well I recommend this to you Ghost Huntress by Marley Gibson a lot of people know my obsession on this book which I doubt will go away from years now because this book is stuck in my head and it will never go away, I highly recommend this to those people who loves suspense and horror type of books :) you'll enjoy Kendal's adventure through paranormal world of dead people :)

If you want an inspiration, well heres the book you needed to read it's very good and very inspiring, as you turn every page of this book it will surprise you and yourself that you were actually turning into a wise person by THOUGHTS.

Amazing book, amazing author and amazing cover, this is one of those book where the main character falls in love with a main character on a BOOK did you get what i say? can relate to it? yup i think so because me? I have like thousand list of characters I want to marry but sadly they're not real , don't get me started *sigh* so anyway one of my favourite Jodi Picoult book :)

If you want to cry and just shed tears every page well this book is perfect for you, like when I finish reading tears i have a puffy eyes and runny nose all night because this book is devastating and well dramatic book for me, it was drama and ugh i can't even explain it, it was one of the best book ever not that it has a new idea which is wrong because this book is just normal and simple like you know the story's ending when you read the first pages but then this book will grabbed your heart and squeeze it until you start screeching and plus GYVER oh my gosh don't look at me.

okay this was long but Tiffany Schmidt just replied to me on twitter like 'ADFHGKLSYIAP'

Don't get me started to this book I was .. I can't .. I'm emotionally fragile when I read this like 'VERONICA ROTH I NEED THE THIRD BOOK ALREADY DON'T MAKE ME WAIT TILL OCTOBER' yup my reaction. A lot of people keep comparing divergent to hunger games which I am pissed off don't get me wrong I love both but definitely Divergent have more sense of action and suspense than hunger games has so to those people who compared this to hunger games PISS OFF.

UGH Michelle Hodkin is my queen she's damn girl you'e amazing, seriously i am addicted to this book and it was F A N T A S T I C you all should read this i already gave this a 100000 stars haha best book ever.

I don't want this post to be longer but as i expected it if i don't stop writing and recommend books to you guys which is actually non-stop if i continue this so yeah thank you for reading guys :) all you need to do is purchase this books which you think you'll love :)

Date a girl who reads

Date a girl who reads.

Date a girl who reads.

"Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books.

Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.

She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants.

You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already.Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings.

Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone.

If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes."

-Rosemary Urquico

Its been awhile since i post or write something over here and It felt amazing to write again. I apologise for my delay of posting a new blog just because of some reasons that involved my hand and some school stuff plus "I DO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE" anyway so this past few weeks or so months I've been hanging out with my friends like everyday and since then i haven't visit my blog and I can see a lot of request from my ask fm which I don't answer not because I don't like answering that kind of stuff but because you know the jackie phrase? 'I'm too lazy to do it maybe next time' yeah? and I hope you don't find me rude or 'big head' just because i don't answer all your question maybe next time when I feel hyper or I'm on a sugar rush :) *laugh* 

I really like to update you guys on whats been happening to my life lately and first I read books like a lot and you guys probably know that since I've been discussing it with my previous blog so anyway I have like 60 books and I haven't finish reading like 5 books so its quite a lot for someone lazy as me but nevermind the lazziness reading is what makes me happy and when summer starts I will be busy like B U S Y for a project which I might blog ;) but don't get too excited about it haha.

Basically this post is about books (duh captain obvious) and no guys I'm not pointing myself as a 'you should date a girl who reads', I think boys/guys don't really find a bookworm attractive or nice to date because they will 'smart talk' to them like about fictional things that mostly happen on books but you know what? who cares? a girl who reads are one of the coolest and smartest one, they give you a fantasy and reality at the same time because they've read it themselves, they know what love is even without experiencing it, they know how things will work without saying anything about it and they know how you feel just by your action because they feel it too just by reading a book which worth a thousand feelings. 

As a bookworm I feel happy everyday as I continue to read books that takes me to another world (which some of you find weird), It really makes me happy whenever I purchased a book even though I haven't opened it or read it because at the time I saw THAT book I know  it will intrigue my whole feelings towards the story and characters inside those papers that opens to another world. I have said this on my previous blogs, I have a list of 'Fictional Characters I fell in love with' and theres a lot of fictional characters I want to marry and be read but "Perfect boys only exist in books" *big sigh* I know guys I know how it feels when you fall in love with a fictional character as you read the book but then realising that they're not real and will never be *virtual hug for you all* 

Those who know me well enough to know I love reading as much as I love books and Cats and Strawberries *face palm* I know you guys find me weird and thats ok because I take that as a compliment so don't be shy to say I'm weird *evil smirk*. I love reading because it takes my sadness and loneliness away its what makes me happy and get me through the day, you learned something in it, in every books theres a lesson, you can take that lesson everyday and it will help you get through hard times, I'm telling you :) books are my best friend and as I grow older I want to write a book with my whole feelings in it as I became a grown up woman with a passion on writing and reading. 

This has been a good day to me and I feel really, really happy about this post because I share a passion with you guys and its been a pleasure to keep you as a reader of my blog, It really overwhelmed me when I saw like 3,000 views on my dashboard I was like 'OMG NO WAY NO WAY I'M WEIRD? HOW DID THIS HAPPENED?" and you don't wanna hear the rest of it but I really am thankful for you guys I hope you find something that you know you will take as you grow older. THANK YOU GUYS ILY :*

(I LOVE THE LUMINEERS I HOPE YOU GUYS LOVE THIS SONG AS MUCH AS I DO)

Make a change

Every single day, children dies. Lack of sleep, lack of food to eat and shelter to go home, at the young age they have experience this circumstances, they struggle to live everyday even knowing that they can die any minute now because they don't have enough energy to live in place where all you see is people and land. no two story houses, no healthy food and no medicine while us on the other hand is living in the bliss of the wind, going out with friends, eat good foods, spend a lot of money, relax and sleep all day in a comfortable bed. Maybe we are the change

We, the people who can make a change can do something about it, instead of spending this plenty of money to waste maybe we can help those people who's in need, who struggle through tears and pain of living and to those who's worth a living. We all need to wake up from this beautiful dream with all rainbows and sunshine and we need to see the damage the we also cause. They need us, they pray for us, they smile for us even through pain, why can't we help them and do something for them.

Do something for the mankind, do something that will make you happy, do something that will MAKE A CHANGE.

This children need us, they need our love, they need our help. We should all open our eyes to see that theres a big hole in this life and we need to fix it, even the one piece of clothing can make a change, even one piece of bread can make a change. Seeing this children smile makes my heart swell, they look so bright even with those barefoot feet, those rug clothes they wear, they look happy.

I want to make a change, I want to save someones life, I maybe young and naive but i know I CAN we all can, no matter how much you tell me I'm too young I don't care, because all i need is to see this kid live their life with a big smile on their face even though it's a hard life because beautiful clothes, shinny shoes, soft bed and big house can't make you feel like your on the top of the world, what matters are the people who surround you and entertain you, we need to see the right deal out of life and this kid open a new perspective in mine, they made me see how important to live, how one death can cause and how sacrifice appreciated. They give me hope and I'll give them mine.

A text can make a difference (text 'yes' to +44 70005) or donate here http://www.rednoseday.com/donate ) its worth it.

Make a difference, make a change, save children's life. 

Book Review: The Evolution of Mara Dyer

First things first, I'M EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE right now, anyway yes your guess is right I finally finished the book 2 and *le cries* I don't know what to say, I was holding my breathe for quite long now after finishing this book, its like my butt is on fire because on how intense the acting, words and everything in the book, I was going insane like 'what the hell is happening' and I swear to man MICHELLE HODKIN LOVES CLIFFHUNGER ENDINGS why? WHY are you doing this to us, I start reading this last night and its creeps me out, it gives me goosebumps, this book scares me because Jude is stalking Mara and the picture of mara sleeping O M G

well to those who already read the book 1 'the unbecoming of mara dyer', you might not want to read any further now because SPOILERS ALERT sorry but I must do this, I don't have anyone to rant to, with all these crazy feelings building up inside me after reading this god damn book. So well on the first chapter I was like 'this is all talking and talking' then it become a wildfire burning everything inside me, like NOAH SHAW are you for real because I'd tap that ((sorry)) but seriously his character becomes mysterious every single chapter then boom you'd forget about that and focus on Mara, Mara I don't really know what to say as I said before in other chapter you'll think she's not mental then in other chapter she had lost it. Like you can't make up your mind but I swear she's not mental, Jude touches her, Noah saw Jude, Jude is one of those weird teenager like Noah and Mara who have this ability to heal and to cause death.

I was at the edge of my seat reading the scene where Noah and Mara were both keep throwing banter to each other, I'm praying 'kiss, kiss, kiss' then noah have to be himself and pulled away because Mara's afraid of hurting him, we all know Noah can sense everything, Mara's feelings, thought and everything it was amusing.

Everything about this book is well written, Michelle Hodkin is a good damn writer. She keeps us on edge in every chapter of the book, it gives us mystery like we're on the book and that we're helping Mara to solve her untold true stories and how she can get the life she had, or how she can be fixed, but Noah said "because Mara, you're not broken" so... I think the only thing she can do is embrace it like Noah is doing but unfortunately I'm still not sure about this whole 'Noah issues' because it's not the end of the book, theres still book 3 which I can't wait to read like' seriously.

In this book you'll cry, you'll laugh, you'll fall in love, and you'll get to relate to each one of the character, because in this story every character have their own MYSTERIOUS SIDE which will want you to want more of this book. So anyway back to the spoiler alert so I thought Mara is going mental maybe she's doing this all, then theres this big twist (as I mentioned on my previous book review) Dr.Kelly (read the series or die lol joke) was *drum roll* sorry but to respect Ms.Hodkin I won't tell you about the big twist because OBVIOUSLY you wouldn't want to read it :( so what I can tell you is that YOU'LL CRY FOR SURE specially on the scene where Daniel is giving a speech to Mara on how 'she's little mom's princess, but thats ok she's my favourite too' phrase I was in hysteric like I can make an ocean through my tears, and I really want a brotherly-sister relationship like that. *sigh*

Someone asked me if the 'Evolution of Mara Dyer' picks up to the 'Unbecoming of Mara Dyer' well yes It does I mean its TRILOGY it means it should be connected to each one. So anyway I don't want to give you guys some more spoiler because I don't wanna ruin this to you after all this is an amazing book and really worth to read, so I really suggest you guys to read it and have the same feelings I felt after reading this series.

I just imagine Noah and Mara like this

I just realise how often a series can be so connected to each one sometimes, like In the first series you love or you grown to the character then after the sequel its like falling apart, which I think will happen to Hunger Games (sorry hunger games fans) but this book didn't let me down, the Noah on the first book is the one I fell in love with then on the book 2 I learn to love his character more, His and Mara's relationship is only getting stronger and stronger and I know on the book 3 something will happen even though I told you guys that something happened to *beep* sorry need to do that but anyway I'll list the things I love about this book and how it will intrigue you to read this. ;)

Things I Love about this book 

▲How the character is build up and well written

▲The concept of the story suits you/me/them

▲How Noah Shaw is a god damn messy, beautiful and smart human being

▲Theres always this twist and turn to every chapter

▲It gives you a mix feelings, devastated and ruined

▲Mara and Noah's relationship is too adorable and sexy at the same time        

▲It will leave you to edge of your seat

▲the whole book is well written, beautiful words and such is undeniable  

▲You can relate into some part specially when it comes to Mara's family  

▲ I think the whole story is actually a mystery and romance

▲I like how theres a bit of Sci-Fi in here 

▲It can lead me into a confusion and then realisation

▲I love how its kinda creepy and thrilling 

▲WELL THE AUTHOR IS SO AMAZING, I LOVE MICHELLE OK

Quick facts: Mara means Lord of death or Goddess of Death while Noah is the only male human to survive the flood and he saved all the animal and OMG ADKGJLSTHPOSVGTS it all clicks to me, I don't know ok I just notice this things partially to my dismay it might be connected maybe thats why on the book the old lady and the boy called her 'mara' but she never met them O M G 10 points for me *clap hands* 

I hope I can share some of my undying love for this book to you guys in the near future, *crossed finger* I recommended this book to you like BADLY :) thank you for taking some time to read my blogs i love you guys x

I want to share this to you guys, Gabrielle Aplin she's the second of the best vocalist out there

for me I guess because first Birdy ya know ;) so here is it, hope you enjoyed it <3 

-Jackie x

Beauty comes when fashion succeeds

I don't really know what to post because I ran out of idea and plus it's not an interesting week for me, all i did was lay around, watch the sunset, watch TVD (the vampire diaries) and eat and read books, maybe because I'm too lazy I never feel productive like maybe once a month but not too often, so everyones asking me if what fashion trend I prefer? I think i prefer boyish type or high street fashion like in the picture (up there you lazy people) the one kylie is wearing the utility shirt or a camo, I've been dreading to find this piece of clothing like come on its high fashion well for me it is, so anyway I have this obsession on high socks and leather jacket plus a band shirt, and no don't look at me and tell me 'it's so hipster' because actually it is kinda, maybe I don't know haha oh well

I visit Kendall & Kylie's clothing line online store and as I open the page I lay my eyes on this beautiful sweatshirt/long sleeve fleece and 'oh my gosh' I swear my eyes keep staring at it and my hand seems to automatically lingered to the screen like 'I want to grab it to kendall, I don't care if she get naked but I want this piece of goddess' kind of reaction, I know right? just look at the fabric of clothing that sweatshirt is made from, it looks so soft and warm in the body but then 'JACKIE ITS ALMOST SUMMER' but who cares? I mean i know a lot of us (most of us) tend to follow the season of fashion but nah you don't have too, what you need is to dress like you not everyone else

one of the fab clothing goodness that kylie wear, I really like how when you look at it, you'll be like 'its so normal and boring' but really it's not, tip to make this a fun ready-to-wear? try adding some arm candy and maybe a jeans will do? or the cut out jeans? then wear a plain black flats or a combat boots ;)

those who knew me too well knows my obsession to an ombre blouse or a jeans blouse/blouse right? well guess what I just saw on Kendall & Kylie's collection, *drum roll* this bleached washed out blouse, it looks so good on kendall but I think Kylie can pull it off with a black jeans and her signature combat boots or some of her baby collection, but anyway its kendall jenner duh she can wear anything she likes and will still look awesome on it! I'm really proud of this girls, I've watch them turn into someone big and now look at them :) <3


So thats all for today, I hope you guys enjoy my oh-so-fashion-talk which turns out to be a nonsense talk but anyway I hope you guys have a good weekdays ahead of you, chin up buttercup :)
oh and when I finish reading the 'evolution of mara dyer' I'll post my continuation of my book review.

Visit their online store at pacsun.com (its very cheap) enjoy shopping ;)

-Jackie xx

City Dreams

One of the places I've been dreaming of is "New York City" short as NYC, city of dreams and the city that never sleeps, I can Imagine people walking down on the side of the road, imagine 4.9 million people who rides New York subway each weekday, you can see all these high building that surrounds you, all the big billboard glued to each one of it and the best part? when the sun goes down you can just sit in one of the near coffee shop you stop by and watch the lights one by one to turn on and be mesmerised on how beautiful it looks, the green, red, blue and orange lights, the car passing by, you can hear people chatting (not in a nosy way), and people walking pass by you without even noticing that 'you can't notice everything that surrounds you when you're in a big city with all these busy people.

I think no matter what I see in my surroundings, it will matter to me, because this is where I grew up but one thing that occurred to me when I start having a mind of my own, and thats to experience new things and to do things for myself, I want to live in a different environment like... here all I see is 'faces of people' that i never had the chance to talk to because I don't know how to or maybe because they don't want to and you start to see how their life changes over a year because you grew up on the same town but have a total different lifestyle, so I decided that 'New York' is probably my first 'city' that I will visit someday or maybe I might stay there for a good long time, who knows right?

I can just imagine myself living there, with 5 cats and I have my own flat where I can just watch the sea of people weaving, people who walk aside of the road, the yellow cab, the rose-colored glass looks like when its night and you can just imagine yourself walking and wandering around this beautiful city, meet new friends and just go to every store you see.

There are a lot of reasons why I love or love to live in New York someday, because I'm a night person and this city fits directly to me it wouldn't be called 'city that never sleeps' without this unending of strangers walking around even though it's pass 12 or these lights that goes on and off, all this various of coffee shops and shops that are open 24/7 , you just can't get enough of this city

Oh and don't forget the filming of horror movies and chick-flicks that are set in this city, broadway and such. When an opportunity opened for me to live in this city, I would grab it and shook my head as If I was insane because thats how I love to try living in this jungle city, noises of cars and people talking nonstop. I will find a good flat where theres a good view of the city and a good work for me.

I actually love saving some pictures of these city's and its bokeh, the lights and the people who is actually a stranger in the picture, i just can't stop imagining every city that have this qualification of 'long walk' 'light nights' 'indie music' stuff thingy. Plus New York is the city where a lot of professional models live in, all these high fashion designer who work their arse off, so this is one of the main reason why I love New York, and its great to live in a city where people are minding their own business and such.



(all the pictures I used are from tumblr) 

   -jackie x